♥ Clåire ♥ 婷 ♥ ZeT ♥

a story of a wonderful hands

2010-07-18T18:40:00.003+08:00

Hand, it born in a pair, like twins.

Hand, owned 5 siblings fingers, have their special functionality.

Hand, build by billions of cells, let it move so smoothly.

Hand, build up the life of man, develop the future.

Hands can build, Hands can shape, Hands can mold, and Hands do speak.

Her hands is soft and tender; love and care.

His hands is big and strong; fight and protect.

Forever live in hands, grasp for the heaven.

do you still remember?

2010-07-15T21:36:00.004+08:00

Tiredness bring it to a day of my life. Could not be found, could not be seen, could not be sense. One word, misremember the other word forget always happen around me and surrounding me. Can i ask, Do you still remember me? But i don't have the courage to do so. I don't feel like i'm anything to you. And i don't think that you make me step in your life. I'm just lingering outside the fence of your heart.

Today, i clicked on the link to see your blog. I feel so awkward, i feel so sad. When i start reading your blog, i can't stop my tear running down. It is so fool of me. It is so naive of me. I shouldn't be get the feeling. I'm might be just a dot in a pixel. This is my misery life, or misery comes to me?

If you don't have the heart for it, please make the last sentence and turn back to basic. One red dot is always that obvious in a group of black. Everyone is so different, that you might not notice. Stop mind playing but playing with your mind. Dance to the music and take a break.

Stop thinking, swallow all the pain, turn to the other road and continue. I can't let go this easily, i cannot be this stubborn, but i will try it out! I really hope that i can still hold up all this till the end.

have you?

2010-07-04T15:01:00.003+08:00

Should i just let it go? peanut + butter is a perfect match? Or peanut just stay up with their own peanut family. Sun goes down, but will rise in the tomorrow morning. Flower fall, but will bloom again in the next day. Bird fly away, but won't guarantee it will come back again, just like the chances that we always missed.

Water swim by the rock, grass, and dirt and leave thier marks. Human mark is just the same as water. Run so fast that sometime people don't even remember. Name and fame, time and glory, is just a small piece that make people matter for a short while. the Trickster live among us, but only one thing that cannot be trick is the Love.

Live your life. Don't waste!

Pledge Life,

Claire

Weekend Hoping No End~

2010-06-20T18:15:00.002+08:00

Welcome home~ Family is the best thing i have after all. All the unlimited supports, and all the unlimited cares that happening beside me is what they sang " The Endless Love".

Another week has passed. Life still goes on without my dear lappy. Keep myself busy but i feel that i just cant let it go. Maybe times will help me fade away this horrible memories. All i can do is search everything to do, and entertain everyone around me. But i fail to do the second job. The more i being funny, the less funny i be and it make me feel more like a weirdo. Hey, keep a positive mind! Make a wise happening on my life and color it beautifully. Say Adios to the past and Bonjour to a new day.

Everytime a new day for me is a hair cut day. A new school day, day after break up, day after the sad past make me wanna make a new hair cut. A new day always happen great stuff. Finishing my photography assignment part 2, my fav dishes, and more cupcakes!!! =D

Lastly, Honey get well soon. IMY <3

Claire =3

damn it

2010-06-08T18:23:00.002+08:00

life is just soooooooo fuck up!!!! sad to say, someone stole my laptop. somemore is a stupid thief that steal laptop and plug out all the connected cabel and the adapter charger. somemore left the adapter charger there... =.= GRRRR.... i cant put myself together now. i never have a proper meal since yesterday. is not that i want to torture myself, but i just dont feel my stomach empty, is just my heart so empty. all my work, assignment,collection of songs and stuffs. my lappy is the all i have. my lappy is the only close and expensive gadget i got. i dont think i can live long without lappy. tear burst and no one know. my hard work and achievement just gone. glory really dont stand long and just remember the pain. i got nothing now.

Days Change

2010-05-28T20:02:00.002+08:00

One question for all, days change people or people change by day?
i really got no answer for this, but u insist to ask for the answer, one solution, u look into your ownself and get the answer.

This particular week, is really stunning! What i get is like triple of human works. But i can seriously tell, this ain't bad things to do. This is just a way of human survivor. When think back of the past, is not that bad at all. Some people tells me, you're quite a silly person and you really looked like a man. A man is not as you think physically a man, but is workload in my daily life. That the way of my life. Deal with it!

Well, after of 5 days of worry of no camera, it finally solved. Just get this superb DSLR on my own hands and study bout it! Whole day photo taking, you can feel the tiredness on your hands, BUT not on your heart and mind. Life is really full of surprise. you will never know what will happen tomorrow or even the next seconds. So, don't worry and be happy. Do what you can do and you think that you won't regret about it! Rock it like is hard, baby!

Another things that happen to me that defined as a good human nature on earth are foods!!! I believe no one denied it. It happen to me everytime, i get to be uncontrolable when say, talk, smell, taste, look on this seducing foods. Another real life food of journey, Muffin always melt your heart. Red wain chicken alway let me think of my home. Spicy Mushrom and vege is the best shot for all the taste nerves. NHOM NHOM NHOM~~~ Don't get mad at me, this is what i called it a life.

Pledge Life,
Claire

The Past : Ep2

2009-06-21T00:19:00.002+08:00

The past is always the history. Just like what reporter do their works in the newspaper.

A new journey on this silence Saturday morning. achievement is the cure of the pain. Life is about the process, process is the valuable mankind development. I sleep earlier than last time, less thinking, but the noise interrupting me. I started to wonder, what i will be when i out of my life and get instant changes? Can i make it and moving on? I like surprise, but not disaster.

Sunday smile, but i never get to smile back. How silly I am to get extra worry about the think that i shouldn't be. Thanks for the uninvited helping hands. Surprises never end, like a hearty white almond. Washed up, get dress, and ready for the ride.

Someday, i just hate talking. I felt far away from friends, from all of my friends. I just can't speak it right. I notice my weakness but i just can't share it verbally. I hardly express myself. I feel down when i talk to them. Because they are just too high to reach.

Most of the day, skipped class always be my favorite. But going class will be a lot of unexpected stuff happening. I like friends, just not mine random community. Happiness is what we chase, unwanted event is just the consequences that randomly happen. Let chase our dream, catch our dream, share our dream and live as the life goes on.

Pledge life,
Claire

The Past : Ep1

2009-06-20T23:52:00.002+08:00

The past of mine... is quite empty and not wonderful, somehow.

April 2009:

im confused. can't decide to work or back to study. The criticise and those annoying eye sight make me feel so irritating. I am glad to have friend like Terrence, he give me some guidance. I am glad that i can stand beside with my mother, support me so much. I feel guilty that from last time i did not think about others and make my own selfish decision. I know that i somehow did hurt her. I know that i'm not her favorite child or her prouds', but i'm proud that i have her. No matter how hard she try, she just want us to find a way to become a useful person. I promise that i will. You give me life, and i will life up wonderfully.

being alone in the house is empty. I can't get any socialize program or activities. I'm getting invisible and forgettable. The things that i do in the house is just like a schedule. Wake up, open computer, eat, and sleep. Everyday repeat the same things. My best best freind ever is my Laptop even HE is not expensive and look extraordinary. But at least HE is my good companion. Maple-ing whole day doesn't make me sick, but it make me feel more enrichment and i get all my friends there even i never see them. I can just have FUN with friends and there are really good friends. Getting real friends, i do mean REAL existing friends, is ain't no fun anymore. Owns benefits, what in their heads is what will they get and how much they own. Is all about this, live with no value. What they want is just victory and not the enjoyment in the life being.

Life is not that meaningless. Is just what you think about it. when it is not ok, the true friends will make you feel better. If you are a true friend, just don't runaway.

Regards,

Claire

Popiah Day~

2009-04-13T14:03:00.002+08:00

super veggie popiah!!!!

is so warm and nice~
it will be my 1st bite!!!!

minced meat and veggie popiah!

woohoo~ eat while is still HOT!!!

damn nice VEGGIE POPIAH!!!

carrot and veggie~ this popiah is melting my heart!

get ready to be eaten by CLAIRE!!!! wahaha

self made POPIAH!!!

wahahaha.... eating those incredible nice popiah!!! i feel so happy today~ can eat popiah!!! my house still have a lot... hahhaa... come my house if you want... wakakkaa

Can't EAT ENOUGH!,
Claire

Making Signature for X-COZ FORUM!

2009-04-13T13:44:00.003+08:00

i make this signature for the forum.... x-coz... will i make this i think got quite long ler... i think i statified with this... haha... then i try to put it... but WTH!!! because my level not enough high... then i cant put picture... sob~ is very sad.... i hope can use in the future!!!

The Day We Sing K~

2009-04-13T13:35:00.002+08:00

Last Friday... 10 of April~ yeap... is in the night time....
We sing until so syok!!!

-The Kim Choo unlimited taking photo~ she is making love with the camera... hahahaha....
-Mei teng ler.... didn't song that much~ but i think she enjoy....
-Shuk Ling ler.... make a lot of funny move.... until we cant sing properly.... lolx...

we going back that time is 3am.... my fren tot im going clubbing tim when i say 3am.... is really funny... there is some sensor part when we at there... hahahhaa.... wanna know? ok... i let you all know... We stand on the sofa and jump and sing... the waiter outside saw us... hahaha...

really donno why no ppl post we go chiong k... but really thx to SL that belanja us... XD

Regards,
Claire

Boring~

2009-04-08T21:10:00.004+08:00

i am totally freak out with the boring life i having now... it was so not cool and i was going to be freak out of myself. of cause i did not freak out... i go to movie download site download 2 movie which is mean girl and bride war.... is pretty funny thought. then i watch 3 movie today, feng yun animation... wow is cool and the other 2 is the movie i downloaded. doing some smudge work, finally i remember what mei teng said to me yesterday. Then i do some art work with photoshop. I name it vivid butterfly, don't ask me why i name it, i don'teven have the idea why i name it like this.

well, then i put the vivid butterfly art work in into blog name x-coz where all my mix's event friends is there. But i hope they did not see it... because i feel that is quite lame... they usually won't find out... kekeke...

actually im quite proud of myself cause i still have the thinking to help other do assignment while now im not studying. it is fun to help people. it was yesterday, that this thing happen. my cousin ask help from me, and he is study business. ofcause i agree to help him althought im not a business student. then luckily is all "briefly discuss" question. I am good at that, maybe. i study awhile what the question, then i use bout 3 hours to finish it. I think im good, but i hope the answer is correct.

after finish cousin's assignment, my sister, nicole ask for my help. HELL YEA!!! im helping her. Just some typing work. i do it fast and clean. Now i am thinking that would someone employ me as a typist... im good... haha...

well finally... i blogging here... with smell yea smile when i post it... you bet i'll do it... cos i really will do it... IM NOT MEAN~

RE-gard,
Claire

2009-04-07T18:19:00.002+08:00

Eternal Flame

Close your eyes,
give me your hand,
darling.
Do you feel my heart beating,
do you understand.
Do you feel the same,
am I only dreaming.
Is this burning an eternal flame.
I believe it's meant to be,
darling.
I watch you when you are sleeping ,
Do you belong to me.
you feel the same,
am I only dreaming.
Or is this burning an eternal flame.
Say my name,
sun shines through the rain.
A whole life so lonely,
and then you come and ease the pain.
I don't want to lose this feeling.
Say my name,
sun shines through the rain.
A whole life so lonely,
and then you come and ease the pain.
I don't want to lose this feeling.
Close your eyes,
give me your hand.
Do you feel my heart beating,
do you understand.
Do you feel the same,
am I only dreaming.
Is this burning an eternal flame.
do you understand.
am I only dreaming.
Is this burning an eternal flame.
do you understand.
Do you feel the same,
am I only dreaming.
Is this burning an eternal flame.

Now i have some feeling like this song... I guess it was wrong. I don't know why i guess i was wrong, maybe is the others word that i convicted, not my own feeling~

Confuse,
Claire

Previous Incident: My elder sister wedding party~

2009-04-07T17:53:00.005+08:00

March 20
Today is really farking busy!!! i cant done the video i make, the t-shirt deesign is constantly changing. All the jerking thinks keep coming to me. I wonder that i really in that bad situation. i really hope to get rid of those bad things soon. Phew, i save up all the anger that will make my blemish more. keep smiling all the way up. Then try to make myself in good situation as everyone cant see tthe bad site. I never eat whole day. Just a minor sushi!

Time past by, it was very fast. is about 3pm that time, me and Carina go JJ to search for medicure and pedicure specialist. Round here and there, making the final decision, and here we got the medicure and pedicure for my pretty sister. Wow, the specialist is really cool, she draw it nice. Is bad that i dont manage to get the photo again. The funny things is, when we are going back that time, we really scare the medicure will spoil because my sister driving. Too bad that i donno how to drive. *evil laugh*

We get home, the nail bangs a lot of stuff, but it never spoil. 6 in the evening, hui Shin call up. Gosh, she is here the way too early! But i manage to get her in time, i think. talk to her awhile, introduce, then eat. is quite boring for me actually, too many people. very noisy, and i manage to hang together with Khalen's friends. they're funny and cool, we laugh together.

Finally, Candy, Shuk Ling and Kim Choo came. introduce, and eat.... When we get upstair, which is go inside my room, my youngest sister manage to give me a glare! What the hell!!! She say somemore, don't get the room dirty. I am fucking irritating with her dumb ass attitude. I am just use a cold tone told her that my friend is not kid like YOU!!! make her shut up, im glade. time passed real fast, we eat and eat and eat and talk. Funny conversation, is a memory. I really glad they came. I really happy to see them. In the late night, ok is midnight, is time to say bye bye. phew~ good day, good night..................

Regards,
Claire

Previous Incident: My elder sister wedding registration!

2009-04-07T17:21:00.004+08:00

Febuary 28th
I still online. I remembered. Waiting for John to arrived. Is 10 in the morning. Today is my elder sister, Carina registration. Few hour later, John arrived and we meet and chatting. The times has come, it was time to fetch my elder sister from the beauty studio. I went change cloth, when i reach the door, my mom ask where i going? HELL! of cause im going to Carina registration. Why i can't go? Is a celebration, is should be more people go, and make all fun around. She looked awesome, she is pretty. We take off to the destination, Hokkien 会馆。We wait. There is pretty much people register that day. I hate how my mom looked at me. I can't really figure what is she thinking. The time they register each other, is cool, real cool. We have photo up everything. But i don't have it here. So sorry that i can't share with all~

Regards,
Claire

EDITED AGAIN!!

2009-03-14T12:35:00.002+08:00

2nd design of tee for MiX TRAC 09

comment:

not nice...

3rd design of tee for MiX TARC 09

comment:

better than 2nd one. Is simple and nice.. ^^

The design of name tag for all the committee and CREW!!!

The Poster for MiX TARC 09

*Next week will be seen at Canteen 2 ^^*

The official MiX TARC 09 logo

SMART brain =x

hope you all enjoy~ and i did enjoy! :)

Regards,

Claire

i cry when he write~

2009-03-11T02:28:00.003+08:00

"Grandma rest in peace.. i remember your voice your look and what you telling me"

This is what my cousin wrote on the MSN message. Tonight 2.31am, online on the wednesday midnight, i take my my laptop to "sister" room. The Bleach animation suddenly make me felt bored and i closed it without any thought and left a single trace. My cousin, John see me online on the midnight and pm me so we chat on. Suddenly i saw the message above, i feel really awful and really sad. I make a bad request to ask John to delete it to cover my sadness. John, who thought that i'm just kidding with him reject the request. By that time, my tear already can't wait to flow out of my eye. It just can't stop pouring out like the water fall. Everything was like flash back at the moment. It really does feel awful and is a feeling that can't denied in our life.

He finally realise that i'm not kidding and he try to joke around. He really bad at joke. I laughed, bitterly. I really miss granny, i really miss her voice, her smile, her look, her every single sweat that work so hard for us.

picture of granny & granpa on the CNY

Tear-out,

Claire

Wei Li House BBQ~

2009-03-07T20:55:00.005+08:00

What a boring day, is not because Wei Li house party is boring, BUT no people fetch me go MAKE ME FEEL LIFE is soooooooooooo BORING!!!! I'm going to have hundred ton of sadness throw inside my blog today!!

1st msg i recieve from Candy, *tot tot*
"Chai Thing i think i can't go to there due to personal reason. sorry"
-no reply

2nd msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*
"Where are you"
-reply:at home

3rd msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*
"Suk Siang maybe going... you ask her see can fetch you or not"
-reply:you help me ask can bo.. >.<

4th msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*

" u ask her la, i don *********************** "

-reply:lolx.. then how you go?

5th msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*

"i drive. tat is why i ask u where are you ma? If u at Meru ii can go fetch you."

-reply:har.. you come jj shopping then we walk then go together.. ok bo?

6th msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*

"can't lar. cos my bro not yet back. he drive to college."

-reply:weili din invite her how come she will go?

7th msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*

"Weili din invite who"

-reply:****

8th msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*

"ya mer? i heard that got ah. who tell u wan? i ask weili again"

-reply:when your bro back? >.<>

9th msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*
"im not sure what time but i have told him i want to go out tonight"
-reply:haix.. cham lor.. u ask weili d? you got online?

10th msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*
"I massage her d. but she din reply"
-reply:haix.. you late also nvm.. i wait u..>.<>

11th msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*
"choo ask u ask mei teng cos she is going"
-reply:mei teng say no go ler

12th msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*
"*error* send to wrong person"
-reply:lolx send wrong msg!

13th msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*
"can u go suk siang house? cos she don have also, she ask her dad fetch her come my house."
-reply:no ppl fetch me.. choo le?

14th msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*
"choo at pj. later her bf fetch her go weili house. around 10 something only will reach klang. ur sis n bro le? they cant fetch mer?"
-reply:go out ler.. adn if i get my mom = no go

15th msg recieve from Hui Shin, *tot tot*
"then u have to wait mei teng d lo... cos she got things to do... if she finish early she will go.you msg her and let her know that u sit her car if she going. k?"
-no reply =.=

16th msg recieve from Shuk Ling, *tot tot*
"Hey, how are you going to weili house? are you there yet?"
-reply:no people fetch me

17th msg recieve from Shuk Ling, *tot tot*
"OMG, i donno man, what about suk siang?"
-reply:her father fetch her go hui shin there

18th msg recieve from Shuk Ling, *tot tot*
"Then you can ikut her? or she went already?"
-reply:i donno no people fetch me out.. sienz

19th msg recieve from Shuk Ling, *tot tot*
"haiz, sorry pal, i thought mt is going to fetch you but she told she got something to settle, 10pm baru go.actually i wanna go with you all but now i have to find another way."
-reply:you also havent go?

20th msg recieve from Shuk Ling, *tot tot*
"going... have to ask my dad to come to fetch me lo..."
-reply:you at where?

21th msg recieve from Shuk Ling, *tot tot*
"meru"
-reply: that Si hui shin got car also dun wan come here fetch me.. sob T-T(heart break)

22th msg recieve from Shuk Ling, *tot tot*
"haiz.. too bad. i guess u can only for mt to come fetch you at 10 lor"
-reply:sienz d lar.. haix

23th msg recieve from Shuk Ling, *tot tot*
"terpaksa lor"
-no reply.. again

so now is 945 and the gathering start at 8... im still waiting my goddess to come and save me!! will she come and fetch me or i will be left to dead here to night? Pray up for me~

Desperate soon,
Claire

Thing That My FrenZ will SURPRISE!

2009-03-06T22:41:00.004+08:00

I do something crazy today. I spend 200 for this. No turning back!!!

i think everyone will be surprise~ cos i never look like this before.... but one think for sure i look like kiddy again. Thanks to Candy for accompany me go fix this hair. I feel sorry for make her feel so boring cos i have really a lot of hair and do this hair at lease 4 hour!!!

First, i really don't know what to say and i a bit dumb. i say straighthen my hair and then the counter say go and seat. I was like HELL why she never say how much? Fortunately i am a bit smart and ask how much. The lady boss touch my hair and say "Your hair is long, i do everything for 200! wash + cut + treatment + rebonding. I admit that my hair is quite long, so i also no energy to cut price, and i just agree.

I sit, of cause, then wash ... blow... cut... cream ... warm hair... wash... straight .... cream ... wash... treatment... blow... cut... DONE!!! AT LAST!!

Take me ages, my butt is like flat when i wait and wait. I wonder hows Candy butt ! XD Candy say my hair look really like kiddo. I like it some how~ Not the word kiddo! =.=

The 1st and the last people say my hair not nice(today) is my mom. i wonder why she never support me, in most of the things i done in my life. =.=

The second thing piss me off is when my sister,Nicole(which is not human). She everything wan to tease someone, she sure say (in Hokkien) "a human outside say she don't want to rebond her hair". I was like telling her " yeah, your not human so just stay inside". She really the most piss off person i ever met in my family!!! Sometime when me and bro upstair, calling us for something she also will say" human upstair, come down!" ! OMG, she downstair is not human, and i wondering how come she is taking to us?!?

Done all of the unhappy stuff~

Gather with all the happy stuff!!!

I got a call from Joe, which i never see him for ages. I am surprise and heartbreak~ He ask me weather i'm from design division(the heartbreak part) we knew each other for year and i answer i'm from computer division. I done a lot of design in event. He is really lucky that he find me.. =x

I forget the event he offer, but i waiting for his fren call.

Kiddo,

Claire

MiX 09 Design~

2009-03-03T14:25:00.005+08:00

Recently i catch up with a event call MiX Launch 09. I'm surprise that I'm chosen again to be a part of the commitee member of this event. As usual, I'm a part of the design again. Actually i hope that i can get to work in other division to get to learn more. But is ok for me too, i can improve in my design also. Well, I'm run out of my brain juice, to get more different idea. I think im so DUMB that can't get a better idea except this one. So the other comment is ask me to change the color. So i make up two version of this bloody design. Of cause that I'm blaming myself for being not useful at this hour.

So the below 2 is the tee design for the MiX Event. I hope it isn't that horrible...

Brain Storming,

Claire

The Holiday

2009-03-01T20:49:00.006+08:00

After having so much so much bad things, i decided to go for holiday at Kelantan. The place that someone take good care of me a lot. I meet a new girl just 7 month. She is really cute, and most of the people say she look like boy. No doubt, she still a girl. I have few( a lot ) of her picture.

We go out breakfast and lunch can be say everyday. So when Xuan Xuan not feel sleepy, then we bring them along. When i hug her out and walk everywhere, Xuan Xuan's mother say that im like her Mom!!! Everyone say im a young mother from now on. Until now Xuan's mother send me message and say my daughter need you to hug her for walk. Is really funny. At the holiday time i make her a cd, a cd of her photo album. Plus a funny photo with long hair. Everyone laugh at it. Xuan is a very smart and cute girl. I miss her a lot, and my aunt, and my aunt mother, and my uncle. They all very nice to me and i miss them a lot.

Missing,

Claire

The year Of Sorrow of MINE!

2009-03-01T00:18:00.004+08:00

Today is the day of the first day of chinese new year. Probably everyone is happy and making joke all around. We having photography section at my grandpa house. All of the family member except 1st aunt and last aunt and 4th uncle. About the time morning at ten, we going to other relative house and visit them. No long later, my granpa call up to my relative house and say granny is unconscious. Later on of cause we rush back!! by the time we get back to granpa house granny already send to DUMB ASS HOSPITAL "SRI KOTA''' !! We reach there, and the stupid Doc say this and that and slowly make transfer to other hospital!!! They try to make money count by hour to stay in their hospital, and don't care people life! CURSE THEM!!! My granny wait for 5 hour and get transfer to KL general Hospital. So, of cause the Doc at there say is too late can't can't be helped anymore. We pray and pray and pray, hope my granny can survived. All the way long, we talk to granny ask her to wait and don't leave us. I can feel here legs and hands moving from time to times. I also saw her tears is out of her eyes. I feel really awful, why my granny will suffer like this. She always a good person, kind and caring. She give food to those street dog, she loves all her grangchild, is all. At the time of 8:30pm, my granny wait for my granpa come to visit him for last meet, cause my granpa go back home and pray for god. She wait granpa and see her for the last time, later on she passed away peacefully.

Everyone still fell awful and my tear is cry until it dry. Suddenly i remember my friend say, don't cry for the someone who is death, it will make the one you love unpeaceful and feel sorry. I try so hard and not to cry, and i even try to cheer them up not to be sad and tell them if u sad granny will know and she feel sad too. If you live happily, she also will felt happy for you.

The day we bring granny back from the hospital we look and granny and i flash back everything my granny tell me, her every single word and concern make me remember back. My dad and uncle and granpa will do the best for my granny and make her rest for peace.

The part that i hate is here!!! All those aunt and uncle said for empty promises and just want to prove that he or she is a good son and girl!!! I hate when they pretend to be someone but they are the most unrespectful to my granny!!! First one is my 1st Aunt! She always tell us to pray and talk less, but she is the one that talk a lot and not praying a lot!!! Then everything she also want to take place, like scare to lose out to speak! people say one she also yes here people say two she yes there. Don't know everything still want to pretend to know everything! She damn annoying and make me pissed off!!! Then other people matter she also want to join. My granpa tell me don't do this thing, then i was like say something my granpa don't like to hear, and he tell everyone. This i nevermind, but the annoying people want come and give ajaran to me. before she say something i already kill her word with my eyes!

The second person is my last uncle, because they say want to take shift at night, but he sleep all night long AT LIVING ROOM. and this is how he shift. Same as her wife, sleep so long and still want to get benefit. Everytime want to take big stuff.

I'm tired of talking about everyone already. Is still a long story to tell, but now everyone real face is shown infront of me. Relative is also sometime selfish, but luckily i still have some beloved cousin and relative that care each other really much and i think this will make my granny peaceful and the big family is stood still! One more thing, im proud that i can make something for my granny, is make her photo beautiful, and im glad that everyone like it and say my granny photo is nice..

I LOVE YOU GRANNY!!

Love,

Claire

1 month

2008-11-21T21:24:00.001+08:00

is already 1 month from now...
i came home!!!!
wow~
last time 1 week come back 1 time... now...
1 month come back 1 time...
but more cham is...
EVERYONE SAY ME FAT jor~

sad,
Claire

ICT SHOWCASE 2008

2008-10-22T16:08:00.003+08:00

Alert to all TARCian!!!! This is a very important event is goin on and happening in Tunku Abdul Rahman College.

The TARC Microsoft Student Partners and TARC Computer Science Society KL once again bringing "Tarc Imagine Cup 2008" to the campus!

This time, we accept participants from various branches of TARC!

Categories:

1. Software Design

2. Robotics and Algorithm *

3. Mash Up *

4. Photography

* New category! Come approach us for more details!

Registration Booth

@ Booth 3 Canteen 2 Foyer

Charges: RM20

Freebies: T-Shirt, Resource DVDs, Workshop

Fund Raising Booth

@ Booth 5 Canteen 2 Foyer

Hardware: Mouse, USB Thumb Drive, Notebook Cooler Pad, Notebook Protection Sticker, CD-R, DVD+/-R, and lots more coming soon!

For SAS students, you can get a copy of

Windows Vista Business (32-bit) - RM10

Windows XP Professional - RM5

Expression Studio - RM5

Visual Studio - RM5

comes with cover!

* You must provide a valid student ID during your purchase.

* For Microsoft Windows products, you must NOT purchased previously, nor get your copy at D303.

* For other than Windows Vista Business, the DVDs will be distributed at D303 with notice at http://eLearning.tarc.edu.my...

fail list day!!

2008-07-31T11:53:00.002+08:00

is a bad week for me... i been in a mid-term fail list for all my subject in this semester. But is all right for me, today my motive is to be a blood donor. hope that i can reach the target and be a great donor. im proud of myself now. XD

to day is the last day of digital fair. Good luck for everyone.

Lucky Charming,
Claire

Day of Life~

2008-07-30T13:39:00.001+08:00

Wednesday! the day that i left no more money(just have 2 bucks) for my whole week. I'm pity for myself. i wanna cry like hell. I hope someone will be my god and sponsor me. Start from now on, i will everyday drink oat drinks.
Besides, i want to donate blood, but the 'BLOODY' receptionist say that i don't have enough iron to donate it. Because the needed iron must reach 12.5 to conclude as a healthy blood for patients. But i wanna donate blood!!! So GOD! please let me donate blood on this Friday.

cry like a river,
Claire

Sony VAIO Hunt!!!

2008-07-19T12:36:00.000+08:00

What does my birthday mean???

2008-07-11T19:30:00.003+08:00

i check this on internet... facebook actually... affected by Keng Pin~ =.=
here is it>>>

THE MEANING OF MY BIRTHDAY!!
You are generous with people in need, sometimes to an extreme that people find you nosey. Your hidden courage and dedication often surprise others. Your imagination is extremely unique. Your Love, Your love life is on the smooth track because it grows from friendship. Although you may not make a sweet lover but your sincerity bring happiness to your couple.

MY SUPER-DUPER STRENGTH!!
Humorous, conscientious and principled.

MY POOR WEAKNESSES!!!
Being hesitant, they often lose great opportunities.

BEST JOB FOR ME!!!
Social work, counseling, agriculture, care and prevention of cruelty to animals.

no one of the field above is related to what i study now... lolx... maybe this is call my weakness and always choose something wrong...

you feel it true???? but i think im bang off by the job...

Care,

Claire @ ZeT

HELP!!!

2008-07-09T18:02:00.002+08:00

i don't wanna got HELP College... but i need help!!! Oh gosh~ i'm almost broke now... god please help me... XD
PTPTN.... fast come and help me.... but it only come to rescue when is august... @.@"
Candy... Sling... EH!!! did anyone inform that silly Choo to come over Klang and meet us this saturday??

Oh gosh~ again... >.<>
My BRO now sound like a sexy girl!!!
My SIS now very horny... >.<
I myself.... now BO LUI!!!

Sob,
Claire @ ZeT

LucKY~ ;)

2008-07-06T12:29:00.005+08:00

Did you all notice what picture is this??? My new best friend other than Tiger!! >.<
Tiger, I miss you.

i haven't introduce my new lovely doggie name LUCKY!!!!

he like me and i like him!!! XD

Dog is man best friends!!

sorry to S.Ling hahhax... i know you like cat, but dog is really adorable!! ^^v

i feel to kipnad him from my granny house, but my house cannot have dog... sob~

True Partner To,

Claire @ ZeT

Java??

2008-06-28T20:28:00.002+08:00

Learning Java!!!! Is really harder than C language~~ sob~ please... my hero come and save me...

THAT ALL !!! WAHAHAHA~~

i wanna buy a laptop!!!
i wanna buy a new bag!!! T-T
i wanna buy some new shoes..!!!
i wanna have fun at somewhere else!!!
i wanna love and pro in Java programming!!!'
i wanna get myself very clear and run as far as i can!!!
i wanna bump all my unfaithful friends or maybe strange "r" (aerosol them)!!!
i wanna get PTPTN loan!!!!
i wanna get a whole new life!!!

is that all???
to be continue~ wakakaka~

Aerosol-ing,
ZeT_Claire

Destiny!

2008-06-21T16:45:00.002+08:00

Sorry for long time never blogging... XD... I was thinking too much of my coursework until that i din realize i din blog for ages. The feeling is just like i didn't eat chocolate for long time! New semester new life for me. Every time i thought about it. But my destiny is still the same, Oh My God!!! I must cooperate with that guy again. For actual, is i help him get the pass rate AGAIN!!!

I was just thinking that is me the one who is so unlucky or is he the one who is so lucky that make request to the DAMN Lecturer and let him be with us in 1 group! Phew!! Is release when type it out. I'm going to be crazy. Being a leader is not easy. Cause every time i talk to him i will get angry! i don't know why. Luckily this time i'm not so alone. I still have Pei Kee and Ching Wen. I hope it will be very cool. and i want to throw him a head shoot.

I wanna go for movie. Long time never go for cinema. Please join me and see HANCOCK together~ >.<

Full of Hope,
ZeT @ Claire

Will Smith RulesZ

2008-05-13T15:48:00.001+08:00

Bet u wanna see it!!!

Webpage Design Logo~

2008-04-24T14:39:00.003+08:00

This is my web page design logo(give comment yea~ ^^v)... my total assignment is 80%, consider A... but i not stratified with my enemy web page. he got 81%. What the hell!!!! I gonna win him next time!!!
He got extra feature with his outside friend help, is totally unfair. To those guy(really is a guy! male!!!) that useless, can't be trusted. They are all lazy and no brain, low EQ, do things never think. I feel good to do things alone without this kind of guys. Alone isn't bad. Worst is have a teammate with people with no brain!

Ruddy,
ZeT

No Longer~

2008-04-24T14:31:00.002+08:00

I am done with everything i have. I can't fulfill anything that i plan last time. So, dear God, please help me this time to choose the right way.

#I put down the relationship and want to be friend back with him. Unfortunately he seem not accepted.
#I want to Study hard, but don't have the mood to study.
#I want to play game to keep down boredom but games make me feel more boring.

Someone.... please help me on my homework. Please help me revision... And.... smoke is bad for help... hahahax...

Bored,
ZeT

I Have A Feeling

2008-04-04T14:42:00.002+08:00

I have a feeling. My heart was pumping hardly than ever before. I don't have the judging mind for now. I am scare and I am really confuse that what i done. I scare i do it wrong again and I scare to fall again. doesn't feel right now. I dunno what is happening to me. I dunno why this world keep turning me down to chaos. I have a hard feeling. I have a sad feeling. I have a fake feeling. I have a stupid feeling. I shouldn't have all this feeling. Just wake me up for all this foolishness. I tired.

I hope can recovered everything that i have done. Making a new layout of my life. Keep all the contents inside with colorful inner. ZeT don't want to be Cipher. And I am not complex as a cipher code. I am just a simple person who want my life to get better and good.

Drowning,
ZeT

GooD laugh~~

2008-03-08T19:55:00.001+08:00

ROMANCE MATHEMATICS

Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy

OFFICE ARITHMETIC

Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime

SHOPPING MATH

A man will pay $20 for a $10 item he needs.
A woman will pay $10 for a $20 item that she doesn't need.

GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

HAPPINESS

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.

LONGEVITY

Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.

PROPENSITY TO CHANGE

A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.

DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE

Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED

Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, 'You're next.' They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

GooD LaugH,
ZeT

Try for the clip~

2008-03-08T19:11:00.001+08:00

Clip is really useful~~~ u like to try it??? must have FireFox only can use the add-on!!! Yeah~
LOVE IS LIKE HEAVEN
BUT HURT IS LIKE HELL!!!

NeW,
ZeT

clipped from profiles.friendster.com

For The SAS SWC!!

2008-03-08T09:22:00.002+08:00

The color always run!!!! hate this... ARRRG!!!!

The last logo that i can make~

2008-03-08T08:36:00.004+08:00

Phew~~ is been a dark night. I risk my life to open computer at midnight to complete my task. One of the task is help people make logo and the other task is make a sample layout for SAS SWC Recruitment brochure. have a good look??

Wondering why the color always change when i post it here... T-T

Tired,
ZeT

new~

2008-03-05T13:34:00.003+08:00

passed post icon really suck... now have a new one... actually is new two... hahaha.... but i dun think is nice enough because my brain was stuck... =.="

Funny,
ZeT

Mastraco~~

2008-02-29T13:37:00.003+08:00

Mastroco... how was it???

give me comment yea... >.<

TenSioN,
ZeT

My New TimeTable~~

2008-02-28T12:53:00.004+08:00

Woohoo~~ i just got my new timetable yesterday night. Thanks to Kean Nee. I quite like the time but i hope got free whole Monday or Thursday. Candy, i got my timetable , how about you???
haha...
thanks to candy also, help me convert pdf to jpg. Love ya~

PosT by,
ZeT

Backstreet Boys, I Love You~

2008-02-28T11:26:00.002+08:00

Actually is a good new and sad news for me. I'm happy that they came, at last. Unfortunately i don't have the ticket to watch them. My heart was broken to million pieces. Why this kind of thing happen to me!!! They live in KL, and the concert was at Sunway. OMG!! OMG!!! I was almost crazy when i listen to hitz.fm.

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
When I let you walk away tonight
Without a word

I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling, ohh
If you were here right now, I swear,
I'd tell you this

CHORUS
Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
'Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you (to you)
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls
I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no.
I've memorised the number
So why can't i make the call
Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibilities

CHORUS
Baby I don't wanna waste another day (another day)
Keeping it inside it's killing me
'Cause all I ever want it comes right down to you (to you)
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave

I'm inconsolable

Oh oh no no no
I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
'Cause everything that I hold in
Is everything I can't let go
Oh oh oh oh can't let go
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

CHORUS
'Cause baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me (killing me 'cause)
'Cause all I ever want (all I ever wanted)
Comes right down to you (to you), to you (to you)
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable
Oh oh oh oh

Don't you know it baby
I don't wanna waste another day
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable
Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah oh oh
I'm inconsolable
Whoa oh oh oh yeah yeah oh oh
I'm inconsolable
Oh oh yeah yeah

I was listening this "unbreakable" album whole night. Imagine that i was on the show with them. Nothing can break the chain between us. I love you all always, Backstreet boys.

Combination Feeling,
ZeT

PaniC~ >.<

2008-02-27T21:02:00.002+08:00

Today is been a hard day for me and also Candy. Now i just hope Candy will release her tension for now. Actually we having a trip to hostel to put our thing back to our room. Then on our way back, a stupid Malay cyclist bang the car we on, and of course is that idiot pervert fault. End up Candy give him RM150. That pervert so damn on him, still say he is not about the matter of the money but still hold on the money so tide. The god have eyes, i believe, and give him the punishment as he needed. But the most pitiful is Candy. She is so panic and all the way we back to Klang, her eye sight was so not peaceful. Almost get into trouble few times. Hope Candy feel well soon...

Worrying of you,
ZeT

my sis idol de blog...

2008-02-26T20:27:00.000+08:00

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/gyapower&article_id=7093277
guess who izzit... hahax

HappY,
ZeT

Valentine Day~

2008-02-14T10:39:00.002+08:00

Today is 14th Feb. as everyone know is Valentine day, but is a friendship day for me. Funny? What is happening? Now in the early morning, all my friend is chatting with me like never chat before. Is fun, is cool, is better than i expected. Well, my next destination is kelantan then genting. hahax... just i have fun whole sem break. Wish me luck~~^^v

REGENERATE,
ZeT

The Last Sad Post about you

2008-02-11T21:11:00.001+08:00

新年快乐 + 万事如意 + 身体健康 + 步步高升 + 心想事成 =

*fine

*don ever find me again

*i don wan to see u anymore

*y u always like dat aa?

*cant think of my welfare...u think i wanted u 2 be boring?u think i wanted that im always forgetfull??my credit turn low i wanted to top-up but no money to top-up...haih....no nid say adi.... im tired of this...i wanted to end this once and for all...no excuses

and this is what i deserve for this CNY. What i carry on is tireness that the addtitute you never change. And what u still carry on is the foolishness that i make. Maybe we just shouldn't make the first step. But i never regret for the first step i make. When the your decission already made, and there is no turning back.

The Last Sad Post About YOU,

ZeT.

HappY ActuaLLy~

2008-02-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

Is amazing for me today. i dint eat ~~~ lolx... i thought i will go for my aunt house for a big fest, but when i see those foods, my stomach start fill up without any food in my mouth yet. And yet, i drink a single drop of water. Maybe i should join the weird people show.

Actually start from the 1st day, or maybe before CNY i was looking forward to call my "Yi Poh", cecause i miss her so much but i never have a change to get the phone and call her. sighx. Is all about the stupid digi fault that eat my credit without any reason. I had it, im done with digi. DIGI SUCK ALL THE TIME!!! ok, come back to my story. So i was planning to but a prepaid call "HAPPY" and i was happy enough to go and buy happy. But when i reach there i cant see HAPPY and then i started to be not happy when i cant find HAPPY and i din buy HAPPY. lolx too many happy because happy is really happy to me. so i end up wit no happy and go back home, until now i dicided to call with house phone. I dont care what my mom will rumble in my ear, in and out, soft and loud. I just call, the first time i so brave. Even the firework outside is cheer for me now. Wakaka~~~

We have a sweet time, talking to each other, and the best thing is i really miss her even her voice i also almost forget. I really feel guilty for that. When she heard of my voice, she was really happy. Of cause i also happy. Is just i know that she is more happy than me. hehex. Is just like i very happy to received Loong call all the time. even is everyday he call up, i will have a very nice feeling and very happy that cant explain. That what people say happiness, even though you din saw that person, as long as you heard their voice and know there are good in their live and live happy, you will feel that is nothing more important than them being in your life.

Memory actually is more than enough. As long as we live together and as long as we having great time together, this is what i call happy and lucky i have "you" and "you" and all of "you" in my life. I really feel great that u all in my life, running in some part of my road of life. Somehow i did forgotten some of you that appear in my life, but i hope i still can say thank you that you have left your track in my heart. I love you all and thank to all of you.

With all of LoVe,
ZeT

boring CNY~ =.="

2008-02-08T15:16:00.000+08:00

When come to Chinese New Year sure got a lot of sound, light, laugh, foods, drinks, money and the most important is BORING MOOD!!!! this year have the highest record, boring in just the 2nd day. But the money is still ok. Have RM300 this year. Hmm~~ every year go Genting i also sienz. Actually the main point is i can't see my dear T.T i miss u. hahax. DO u miss me???

now i got to go my aunt house eat a lot until next time u see me i will be a fatty bom bom~~ lolx. So to be continue...

Bored,
ZeT

Thankx~~~

2008-01-31T19:00:00.000+08:00

Thanks to you Loong, for being understanding. Is glad we all having holiday now. Of cause chinese new year is coming soon. Hwo haven't buy their new cloth please buy it quickly, if no, those nice cloths are belong to other people already. So, are you all grab your nice cloth and shoes?? Me? Are you kidding? i have everything set, of cause. Except 2 shoes. i know im a bit like what they say as "flower money" but what can i do? i'm jealous of those people who have a lot of nice shoe and i also wanna have a lot of nice shoes. Don't you?

Oh yeah! i'm so dead bored in my house. The history repeat again like last time i just finish SPM. Stay at house morning wake up. done what should i done everyday. then online all day, eat and eat and eat. watch tv after close pc since i have limit of online( before 12). The last thing is sleep.
this is my life. quite interesting right? But i was cheer that my dear call me and having talk. He is really sweet. No, is sweets, because is more that just sweet. i can't denied it, seriously. Last word to say. I'm bored and when Mei Teng coming my house??? T_T hehehez...

LuV,
ZeT

Im Hurt More than Angry..

2008-01-29T19:30:00.000+08:00

I'm happy with you all the time , really. But thing have started to change when u started to act like this. I was not angry, but those sadness make the temper of mine goes lose and that was the time everything in our relationship goes wrong. I wrote down this because i can't manage to tell you face-to-face. Every time i talk about this i sure will cry, and harder and harder time to time. I also don't know why. I don't wan bring any sensitive issue. The other thing that i don't wan to talk to you face-to-face is because i scare i can't control myself. I just hope you can see this and know what i feel and not what i want.

*You started to being different after our relationship goes for one month. Our communication less get match all the time. Sometime i do bring some conversation but it will end up with "Oh! My XXX also better in XXX..." i just want us have something to say I'm not showing off that anything this and that. And when this happen i feel really bad and i already have no mood to having talk or whatever else. So, i was being moody not angry.

*I do control myself all the time. I know this issue i say before, and is about promises. Is about smoking. Of cause i do hope you have a healthy life and everyday hope you smoke lesser and lesser. Not i anti smoke, just like if you really do love someone can u think about other things more than just yourself? I know i don't have the power to control i just you will get better life.

*Sometime i think i sensitive, and just maybe. I just don't know that u like to date me more or date your friends more? sorry i say this rude word. I feel every time we all go out not you not really have fun. Or maybe friends is better?

*When come to concern, i know you sure no idea what will it be. Get the most latest example, that night you angry me. My hand was really hurt until i eat roti canai also need use left hand. Sis also say, "want me help you?" but i don't want to because is too embarrassing and my boyfriend having a fun conversation with friends. Then we go Cyber, i was really whole day after exam never sleep. I really want to accompany you. But i was too tired, i have a small nap in Cyber Cafe. I sad, because u thought i boring not sleepy. I was really nothing to say. and i was really freak out that you take shot while we heading back to hostel. Because the day before i having some nightmare. I also assume that you really forget that last time i really scare if this kind of things happen to me. i really scare even i go to ghost house. I was thinking why, at beginning you can remember what i say. But when time past by, I'm i really not important? Or I'm i just a girl not more than a girlfriend to you?

*When sometime i really hope that you can automatic call me or sms me. But there is only 2 time you ever call me and that only less than 5% you will auto sms me. I don't know izzit you too confident about our relationship or what else. Now i just feel less and less confident.

I really do hope we can be as last time. I really hope we can be like that, like the 1st time ever we together and having sweet time. I do take this relationship serious. This few day maybe you do talk about my weird behavior to someone. But i don't care. I just do care what you think and what step you will take after read this post. Last thing i ever wan to say, I really do love you. Please don't play, if you are playing please stop. I know i weak, i do cry every single day after you mad at me. i do having bad dream and even can't sleep well after all. The most funny thing is even i laugh i also will cry. When the day has come, it wont be again.

No Mood For Exam~

2008-01-24T02:18:00.000+08:00

Today is a very special day for me. I having exam at 9am in the morning, and is very important, THE PROGRAMMING!!! Now i hanging around in the cyber cafe and think im kindda not loving ownselve. Now i accompany and also doing nothing in the cyber cafe. hahax. One funny thing is hearing those vulgar word, but they're feeling happy and enjoying the game. they laughing and say it at the same time. that kindda funny, for me, i think.

I have a deep thought. Im not loving my ownselves, and im kidda guilty to everyone. But i cant change anything now. Maybe this is real me. I din study hard but my parent trusted in me for giving the best education. All i think is how i enjoy my life after exam. Is kindda stupid, and i admit it. No doubt, i am really gross. Now my stupid guy sis scream so loud. Until my ear also pain. hehex.. =.=" He using Lucifer and he put his name as "ASSHOLE", im not joking. By the way, Vince using Slayer as his beauty hero.

So, until now i still no get to the mood to study, and i recently get angry easily and sometime sad , ofcourse. So special problem, yea, is "special"!! Im stupid and very aggressive to everything. But can't help!! So i think now is the too much on programming study. I really like programming, but im stupid. No brain to think wat is good and bad.

SoRRy~~~

2008-01-20T01:39:00.000+08:00

actually i just feel sorry for myself. and also my bloggie. Ya~~~ i think my blog also crying for me to give him back his life and battle up again. and now i wanna cross my heart to this keyboard that im using now, if i got time i sure blogging like hell and make my bloggie happy always like i always entertain my love. i started to sing westlife song.... oh~~ my love... hahax...

ctually now is exam season. but unfortunately me as a stupid still dun have the mode to study for my life. pahthetic for myself and my beloved bloggie. sometime i really forgotten that im not a cipher because of the appearence... so i remain not so good in mood some time; all of sudden, and make my frenz scare off. being a human is not easy, but at lease i doing go to myself is more than enough. at lease i try my best. that is wat i alway say to myself, in mind ofcause. if not people will say me an insane. hehez...

actually i do delite myself when i blogging. i feel good..... that more than i would.... hahax... i will be back soon my bloggie... i miss you~~~~

P.S: i miss my dear too... >.<

a LoVeLy DaYz oF MiNe

2007-11-03T15:57:00.000+08:00

Is a wonderful Thursday that was a day that i didn't eat wit my hubby and go eat wit my friend hui theng... hehex... we're kinda craze that day and we dun care bout raining day at night. But it was super freezing night. We talk a lot, we joke a lot, we spam laughing all the time, and this is totally insane. the most crazy thing is we discover 10 big clumsy snail at DKABA there. What a "huge" discovery that we ever had.

Went the night come to 9 something, my hubby call me and ask me to go "sister's" room, the room we get together a lot of time. We watch movie together and when the time have come... he show me 2 cute little dolphin picture. And that was lovely. They are super cute. He ask me that i wanted the pink one or the blue??? both of them are so cute until i cant decide... but at last i take the pink dolphin... i think is for a girl right?? maybe....

i like the dolphin so much... but i love my hubby the most... i think he is my lovely guy from now.. ^^v

LuV,
ZeT

26th OCT... >.<

2007-11-02T21:22:00.000+08:00

The day before 26th October was a peaceful night that was my Mom's birthday. Unfortunately i was at KL. That night i was missing my mom so much like ever before, because every year i was beside my mom when is her birthday. The night except miss my mom, i was at my pet's brother room watch movie and so on. Of cause i was never forget to go out "yum cha" with them as every time night activity. It was about time for me to sleep at the early morning of 230, or can say as midnight. When the time I'm at my room, a guy who now is my BF hug me and ask me for being his GF. i was so surprise. As i also like him a little bit, so i agree to be his GF.

the next very happy thing happen is about my "KAI KOR". He is so amazing. When is about time of 9 in the night, he phone me and with a joyful sound and so do i. he announce that he having a GF on Friday. Oh My Goddess, i was so surprise, it was the same day with mine. then we laugh together... hehehe

It was a tired day, but it was a happy day. i love my dear so much than ever before. He is so good to me and i love him that i cant say how much i do.

LuV,
ZeT

HaRi RaYa SPeCiaL

2007-10-14T10:39:00.000+08:00

This week was a very special week, as all of Malaysian know this was a event for Malay and even all Malaysian to celebrate. Haha... Saturday is the day. Really very hated when woke up early, always blame myself for that. But i wont take it serious. But when i reach my grandmother house, i saw my Tiger i feel very happy. Dun think so much, Tiger is my dog, not the real tiger. Lolx... Some time a admit I'm a little bit childish maybe i am, a bit. I was playing with my cousin and the very unexpected game is Pokemon. Everyone was laughing like hell, and saying I'm totally childish. Is OK, my heart was totally drop into the sank call CHILDISH.

After all, i was playing Maple again, they all say me childish again. why i just cant escape the "C" word??? is tired me, woot!! Night has fallen, but is still young. haha, i cant imagine i wrote this, is totally insane for me. i when to my cousin house and they having buffet. This is the most more event in my life on Hari Raya. Therefore, I'm not going home and stay overnight. I hate my brother, he is so big and all bed is cover by him. i cant even slept well, hmmph~~

I got a super duper big fest yesterday, and I'm getting fat. lolx, i cant imagine.

LuV,
ZeT

Harry Potter's Fantasy

2007-10-05T18:57:00.000+08:00

After a long while reading all Harry Potter book series, i was totally love it like no one do. Yesterday i was reading the last series <> i was getting so excited. I was just like having some magical power that keep me reading the book, non-stop. Seriously, i was read it until 4++in the early morning. Luckily i didn't noise up my family which is sleeping tide. Yesterday night i was reading almost 10 chapters that night. Me myself also didn't notice until i was getting to bed. The last chapter i still remember is Fred died in Hogward.

Last time when I'm quite small, i was thinking who the bloody hell will read this kind of book, so thick and those word so bombastically i can't even understand what it mean. I was quite childish that time. Everyone was being childish when their small right? But now i was the one who read it so that i feel so good and great. It's some kind of miracle, even my friend say I'm so physio that can read those thick book. And that time i was just thinking it was really nothing, and I'm not trying to be all over myself. You never try u never know right??? This is why they all talking about all the time. Young ages humans can't think that wisely, but some of them is just don't have brain to think. What they thinking is just themselves. What is only for their own good, but no one else.

I use to saw one case, there is a guy who is attitude was not bad. When in the society, we use a lot of work together, and need someone help time by time. And this guy we name it Davis, and Davis is totally jerk when i saw his real face under the mask. It was very mean of him. When he need someone, he can just straight go and be good with that person, and when he is done doing and dig all stuff his "friend" got he flee away like Death Eater when they're finish their job being there. While he done this quite many times, some of the people looking for revenge and he was totally stunned like been curse of a stun spell. Of course everyone was impressive with the case speller.

Maybe i was reading too much Harry Potter, and can say too into it. When i was reading that book, i can feel like i was on the spot watching them and seeing their action. Shockley, i can even dream about the story either. Sometime I'm so don't have the idea i was too into it. But all i can say i do love books, i do love my family, i do love my friends, i do love games, i do love all genre of song, i do love everything. This is me, and i will always be me, myself.

LuV,
ZeT

To SHiN Bei

2007-10-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

This is my past, but not too long ago!! Actually i was not want to publish the to public...but to shin bei~~ as she wan me to post it... so i post it up~~the thing goes like this...

On the very earlier of month, that mean since i go college i meet a bunch of frens. one of the fren im talking bout her is KN! ok story goes like this...i was being so bad , angry, hurt, and any feeling i feel... that cant been explain so easily.the 1st thing that she make me have this kind of feeling is she so ta xiao jie behavior!!! when from start she say she can play and anything, so i admit it and we being closer fren not until she started to act stranger than 1st we meet. when we having dinner together, she cant decide, and everyone is having their food. so then im at my room doing revision cox tomorrow got quiz, and she asking me to go eat with them, so i follow. after 45 minute she din order her food and everyone is finished. i din hav any food cox im not hungry. everyone is waiting and 1 hour is gone. i havent read a bloody hell of page. she say "i dont want eat anymore!!". i spend that time to accompany her and she say she dun want eat. what the hell she thinking? i dont even know.other case come through then. we a bunch of fren go out mamak drink. some of the guy(most) smoking. she cant tahan those smoke. everyone was shock bout his expresion, guess wat? she screaming to them who smoke and make those hated noise toward them and say "WANT SMOKE GO OTHER PLACE SMOKE LAR" excuse me miss!!! this is public ok? cant consider?? she still in her mama hug, i can consider that!! so next time those guy autoly go other place to smoke, not giv her see even a dust of it.and another case is got a guy not live in hostel but is late so he having a night there. and that day we walk back, quite slow. that KN scream again "WALK FASTER LAR, PEOPLE VERY TIRED YOU KNOW??!!" ok.. that time everyone was so quite. and i was so stun and i keep sabar her bomb emotion!!

2nd is she keep cheat at me!!! everytime she cheat, i dunnoe why i sure found out. i was so curious, even a small matter and there is not a point to cheat, she also want to cheat. is she finding her fun doing cheat? but she is not good in it!! she is FAKE!!! sometime she even act she hurt to pok tong ching with other people. she act she stomach ache, act she feet cram, and a lot more. we (me& my fren)caught out cox her acting was so bad and we purposely go try here. and that why i say she is so FAKE!!!

3rd one is the most i cant tahan!!! she betray me!!! what the bloody hell!!! she got a lot of personality on her, and that is bad extreamly dangerous!! she jus say my personal stuff to her fren as a joke and in the other second(real fast) she can act pity. i accidently found out. and make me more alert on this kind of ppl. now i was keep being her extraordinary fren , normal than ever!!! i cant even how to talk to her. when i saw her, i jus wanna avoid to be wit her. after some week this case haunt me, at this boring holiday, i dream HER betray me again, i was so stun and i was keep myself from ppl around. after that horrible dream, i keep dream bad stuff. so this few day i cant sleep!!! i make myself so tired. everyday 3 - 4 am only sleep. morning 7 - 8 am already awake. and now i was curi-curi online and make my eyes tired and sleep later!!! i avoid everything. is this the correct way for me? my other fren say jus talk to her. but i cant even say a word. i dun want go college also like no fren do. so i make up my mind that i will keep be patient on her behavior and all her acting. i will act noob.

Oh yea~~ is also a pro SM-mer. no matter who cute guy or even guy she saw, she will suddenly hit people and more worst is cubit people until black green and the worst is bite people until bleed. see what i write?? NO MATTER WAT GUYS!!!sorry for being so emotional, i dont wan to say it so i write it!! but that is my comment. but i dunnoe wat they think about this. but how u thought bout this kind of people??? leave a comment if u see this post!! thx for see me crapping here...

SaD,
ZeT

2ND Dayx Of Blogging~ XP

2007-10-04T15:54:00.001+08:00

Today is a big day though. After wake up, doing all the same thing again and again, repeatably, of course i will switch on my pc and swipe the floor at the same time. Hehex. When i was managing those long and untidy wires, POOPS the pc shut down it self and cold boot forever!!! Oh My Goodness, i was completely terrified until my sister say me NOOB. Sad... of course as a genius as me, i manage to fix it. Firstly i was change the plug to other host, but another electric POOPs up again. I was very stunned. Ok, now i give up to repair it. Grr~~ i was so angry to myself and a bit of terrified, hehex.

After an hour later, i was boring see my sis play those bored games. and i was asking her, " Maple under maintenance izzit?" and she strike me back, =.=" "yea lar, if not why im playing this kind of games." lolx... is ok, and in the other second, i was thinking, im not the one who broke down the pc right? and i fix it again. this time i use other electronic to try those host. It's completely can use as usual. Wondering, maybe the CPU get burn.... or maybe i change the cable and see if the cable got wrong. My house is actually something like a store house, hehex, and i got other spare cable to plug in with. Blimey, i got it. The solution to fix it. Hehehex. I'm quite happy that what i have done today. I save myself and i save my darling from long sleep. And we are together again, for now. Unfortunately, few more days later, I'm going back to Hostel, and probably cant even online few days(a week).

A few minute just now, don't know why i feel a little dizzy. My first feeling i just like sudden death. I was totally insane of thinking this kind of thing. But i feel really uncomfortable when having this headache. Still a little bit dizzy right now when typing all this journal in my blog. Hehex. But when come to fun, all pain will be gone, just like a miracle spell that pull off all my pain. Later on, I'm going to play Maple again after the maintenance. WooHoo~~

Really hope the dizzy will get off soon, and i can be normal status again and having all the fun with online game before going back hostel. God Bless Me.....

LuV,
ZeT

Back With New LiFe

2007-10-03T21:51:00.000+08:00

I'm back with my new life... I'm now 17 and i will be 18 soon(2 month and 3 days) and 5 more days i will started my new semester in college... I was enrolled in TarCollege and taking the subject of Information System Engineering. Everyone was surprise i taking ENGINEERING course, but is not a big deal, is just about system.

While i'm saying having a new life, ofcourse i make some changes. The most surprising is i go to salon and cut off my hair short!!! hehex~ my course mate must be quite surprise then. Everyone is changing, some of them still thinking how to change, some of them is changing, and some of them nvr think to change. Most of people scare to change, because they scare it will change to be more worst. And those who change rapidly always scare to lose out to others. Everyone got their phobia. And my phobia is scare to be alone especially in the dark, real dark. i hope i have Deluminator, can turn the dark to light (harry Potter too much >.<").

My life will go on, appear in this new blog, i have my journey. I hate writing, i think is ok for me to type.

LuV,
~ZeT~